You can’t be generous to others if you’re not in a good place. Adams argues that once your needs are met, you can focus on the needs of others.~ Shane Parrish from, https://fs.blog/2013/12/scott-adams-fail-at-everything/
This is patently obvious, right? Food, shelter, stability, … good old Maslow.
For me at least, there was a transition period— I might even call it a period of listlessness. Certainly there was frenetic outward activity; this was after all my period of biking, (the second love affair with a bicycle,) and the rise of my interest in Art du Déplacement. But it was definitely a period of inward listlessness.
It took years of reading and rumination before I realized what was missing. At which point I set off on a quest. Only to succeed, and set off on a new quest, and again. And again. Not existential-meaning-of-life quests, but simply, “that seems interesting and maybe I’ll try it,” quests.
In the end it was clear that I have—and maybe you do too—an inherent curiosity that, if I’m lucky, will never be satisfied.