You are not alone

When I set out to document the inner workings of sludge, I had in mind the dull architecture of delays and deferrals. But I had started to notice my own inner workings. The aggravation was adding up, and so was the fatigue. Arguing was exhausting. Being transferred to argue with a different person was exhausting. The illogic was exhausting.

Chris Colin, from That Dropped Call With Customer Service? It Was On Purpose

First I want to just say: You are not alone. That complex thing— that bureaucracy you’re trying to wade through— those phone systems, web site chat bots, email exchanges… we are all facing that. That’s the first piece. Take a breath and realize that the problem is not you. Yes, you may have actually broken whatever it is you’re trying to fix… or, you’re trying to save some moeny… or, countless other things that will lead you into the maze of twisty passages, all alike. But the problem is not you. Exceptional things happen, and—counterintuitively—they happen frequently. It’s not you.

Second I want to say that the best way to move through the sludge of a stupefyingly vast bureaucracy is to take good notes. As soon as you realize you are entering the realm of bureaucracy sludge, start taking notes. Put your notes into something dedicated—a single digital file, a separate notebook, a tablet, or just grab a stack of recycled paper and staple the corner. Start every note with the date. Write as much as you can and CRITICALLY after each interaction—each email or message you read, each phone call you attempt—take the time to READ your notes and THINK about what happened and make MORE NOTES right there.

This second part will NOT, in the least, make you more successful at “winning.” But it will save your sanity. Not having to rely on your memory will go a long way towards preserving your sanity.

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How we feel about it

We don’t get to choose what happens to us, but we can always choose how we feel about it. And why on earth would you choose to feel anything but good? We can choose to render a good account of ourselves. If the event must occur, Amor Fati (a love of fate) is the response.

Ryan Holiday

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Seven dwelling places

This morning I was rummaging through a notebook and I was reminded of a great article I’d read about Saint Teresa of Ávila. More specifically, I was reminded that I had wanted to add some self-reflection prompts about Saint Teresa’s “seven dwellings” ideas. And then after some searching I realized I’d never even posted about the article either— or at least, I can’t find it here in the blog… I digress.

Imagine your inner self as a new love interest. You would get to know them by spending time and doing things together. Similarly, to know yourself better, you intentionally carve out space for introspective reflection.

Skye C Cleary, from Saint Teresa of Ávila

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Self-knowledge. That’s the first dwelling place.

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The Mental Swirl Problem

You know the feeling: journal, yoga, that project, call mom, the other thing you’ve been meaning to get to. They’re all there, circling. You can’t settle into any one of them because the others keep interrupting.

Here’s the problem with making a list: an ordered list implies sequence and commitment. Your brain reads “1, 2, 3” as a contract you’re already failing.

But if you don’t externalize the swirl somehow, it keeps consuming mental energy.

There’s a technique I call the Jumble Bullet. Make a quick scribble—a small squiggle, just one fast stroke that looks like a tiny mess. Then write the items horizontally on that line, separated by slashes:

journal / yoga / call mom / that email / budget thing

That’s it. One line. No hierarchy. No sequence. Just peers, captured.

The scribble looks like what it represents—mental clutter you’re getting out of your head. The horizontal format reinforces “these are options, not steps.”

Sometimes just writing it down is enough—you can let go and settle into one of the items because the others are captured. Sometimes you’ll look at it later and realize one thing matters more than the rest. Sometimes you’ll ignore it entirely.

The point is to get it out of your head so you can stop holding it there.

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My way?

For me, all these complex valences reach their peak in one song. And you know which one I’m talking about.

Ted Gioia, from “My Way” or the Highway?

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There was a time—20 years ago, I’d say—when I sang along. It was of course aspirational— or— I’m looking for a word; not quite “aspirational.” I was singing along as if the song in any way represents my actual story. In reality, I’m only acting as if I’d actually tried to do even a few of the things expressed, let alone actually accomplished all the things expressed. Is that posturing? …playacting? …attempting to borrow someone’s bravado?

I’m going to go with: self-deception.

There was a time, not too long ago, when I sang along in self-deception. Now the song reminds me that I’ve never actually even tried to do anything… let alone accomplished anything worth singing about.

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Like letter-writing?

There are broadly two types of sources we identify when studying history: narrative sources and relics […] The former are things designed to convey something to future generations, […] Relics [sic] the other hand were not intended for future generations. They do not have a “transmission intent”. While they often hold true to the beliefs of the person producing them they tend to have little to no large-scale bias in recording history. They are also excellent records equivalent to oral history and can serve as both primary sources and secondary sources that are closer to an original event than subsequent scholarly literature.

~ Venkatram Harish Belvadi, from Relics of the future

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I’ve now been typing away on this blog for fifteen years and what I have posted here has varied wildly in that time.

While it has occurred to me to wonder what happens to the blog after I die, it had never occurred to me to wonder if there might be actual value to historians here.

I’m honestly not sure what to do with that. Do I keep posting? Do I close the garage door?

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Part 6: The Brain

I’ve been doing 16:8 intermittent fasting for years and recently started 48-hour fasts — dropping about three pounds each fast, gaining one or two back, and trending steadily downward. I wanted to understand what the research actually says about what I’m doing to myself, so I worked with Claude (Anthropic’s AI) to produce this series. I set the structure, chose the topics, pushed back on claims that felt hand-wavy, and guided the editorial tone. Claude did the writing and research synthesis. My curiosity driving Claude’s research and prose.

Mental Clarity, BDNF, and Ketone Fuel

Research brief — what happens in the brain during extended fasting. The subjective experience of mental clarity is real and widely reported; the science behind it is more complicated than the popular narrative suggests.

The Clarity People Report

Many people describe a distinct shift during extended fasting — typically somewhere after the 24–36 hour mark — from brain fog to unusual mental clarity. This is one of the most consistently reported subjective experiences of fasting, across cultures and contexts. It’s real. The question is why.

Three candidate explanations, not mutually exclusive:

  1. Ketone metabolism — the brain runs efficiently on beta-hydroxybutyrate (BHB)
  2. BDNF upregulation — fasting may increase brain-derived neurotrophic factor
  3. Stable fuel supply — no more blood sugar fluctuations from meals

The first and third have strong physiological grounding. The second is where the science gets shaky.

Ketones as Brain Fuel

By 48 hours of fasting, the liver is producing ketone bodies — primarily BHB — as the body’s main fuel source. The brain, which normally relies heavily on glucose, can use BHB efficiently. Some researchers argue the brain actually runs more efficiently on ketones than on glucose in certain contexts, producing more ATP per unit of oxygen consumed.

This is part of the metabolic switch described in Part 1. (1) The shift from glucose to ketone-based energy isn’t just happening in muscles and liver — the brain is making the same transition, and the subjective experience of clarity likely tracks with this fuel switch completing. The “keto flu” brain fog (Part 2) happens during the messy transition; the clarity arrives once the brain has fully adapted to the new fuel source.

Evidence strength: Strong. The biochemistry of ketone metabolism in the brain is well-established.

BDNF — The Overhyped Claim

Brain-derived neurotrophic factor (BDNF) supports neuroplasticity, neuronal resilience, and the growth of new synaptic connections. Animal studies consistently show that fasting upregulates BDNF, which is why it’s frequently cited as a fasting benefit.

The human picture is much murkier.

A 2024 systematic review published in Medicina examined 16 human studies (from 2000–2023) on intermittent fasting, calorie restriction, and BDNF levels. The results were strikingly split: (2)

  • 5 studies showed significant BDNF increase after fasting interventions
  • 5 studies showed significant BDNF decrease
  • 6 studies showed no significant change

That’s about as close to “we don’t know” as a systematic review can get. The review concluded that IF has “varying effects on BDNF levels” in humans.

A 2022 narrative review in Frontiers in Aging attempted to synthesize the neurotrophic effects of IF, calorie restriction, and exercise, and similarly found the human BDNF evidence to be inconsistent and insufficient for strong conclusions. (3)

Why the disconnect between animal and human data? Several possibilities:

  • Animal studies typically measure BDNF in brain tissue directly; human studies rely on blood BDNF levels, which may not reflect what’s happening in the brain
  • The fasting protocols studied in humans vary enormously (Ramadan fasting, alternate-day fasting, calorie restriction, time-restricted eating) — these may not all trigger the same neurological responses
  • Measurement timing matters — when in the fasting/refeeding cycle you measure BDNF may produce different results

Honest assessment: The subjective mental clarity during extended fasts is real. Attributing it specifically to BDNF upregulation in humans is not supported by the current evidence. The more likely drivers are ketone metabolism (well-established) and the absence of postprandial blood sugar fluctuations (straightforward physiology).

Evidence strength: Strong in animals, weak and contradictory in humans. This is the weakest of the claimed fasting benefits in this series.

The Stable Fuel Supply

This is the simplest explanation and possibly the most underrated: when you’re not eating, your blood sugar isn’t spiking and crashing. The brain receives a steady supply of ketones instead of riding the glucose roller coaster. For anyone who normally experiences afternoon energy dips, post-meal drowsiness, or reactive hypoglycemia, the stable fuel supply of ketosis may account for much of the perceived clarity — not through some exotic neurotrophic mechanism, but simply by removing the disruptions.

Evidence strength: Physiologically obvious but rarely studied in isolation because it’s hard to disentangle from the other effects of fasting.


Sources

  1. de Cabo & Mattson 2019, NEJM — metabolic switching and brain ketone adaptation: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31881139/
  2. 2024 systematic review, Medicina — IF and BDNF in humans (contradictory results across 16 studies): https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/38276070/ (free full text: https://www.mdpi.com/1648-9144/60/1/191)
  3. 2023 narrative review, Frontiers in Aging — neurotrophic effects of IF, CR, and exercise: https://www.frontiersin.org/journals/aging/articles/10.3389/fragi.2023.1161814/full

Part 5: Inflammation and Immune Renewal

I’ve been doing 16:8 intermittent fasting for years and recently started 48-hour fasts — dropping about three pounds each fast, gaining one or two back, and trending steadily downward. I wanted to understand what the research actually says about what I’m doing to myself, so I worked with Claude (Anthropic’s AI) to produce this series. I set the structure, chose the topics, pushed back on claims that felt hand-wavy, and guided the editorial tone. Claude did the writing and research synthesis. My curiosity driving Claude’s research and prose.

Inflammation and Immune Renewal

Research brief — how fasting reduces systemic inflammation and primes the immune system for regeneration. Two distinct but related mechanisms.

Inflammation Reduction

Jordan et al. 2019 — Stefan Jordan, Navpreet Tung, and colleagues at the Icahn School of Medicine at Mount Sinai, led by Miriam Merad. Published in Cell, 178:1102-1114. (1)

This study directly tied caloric intake to the circulating inflammatory monocyte pool — a key driver of systemic inflammation.

What they found:

  • Short-term fasting reduced monocyte metabolic and inflammatory activity and drastically reduced the number of circulating monocytes
  • The mechanism: fasting activates AMPK in hepatocytes (liver cells) and suppresses systemic CCL2 production via PPARα, which reduces monocyte mobilization from bone marrow
  • Fasting improved chronic inflammatory diseases without compromising emergency immune mobilization during acute infection — the immune system’s ability to respond to real threats remained intact

The human component: The study profiled 12 healthy, normal-weight volunteers at 3 hours post-meal and at 19 hours fasting. The mouse experiments used longer fasting periods and showed more dramatic effects.

Caveat: The human fasting window studied was 19 hours, not 48. The mouse data showed more dramatic effects with longer fasts. Extrapolating to 48 hours is directionally reasonable — if 19 hours produces measurable monocyte reduction, 48 hours would be expected to produce more — but the specific magnitude at 48 hours in humans was not tested in this study.

This connects to the metabolic switch framework (Part 1): the drop in insulin and shift to ketone metabolism activates the same AMPK pathway that suppresses inflammatory monocyte mobilization. It also connects to autophagy (Part 3) — the cellular cleanup machinery is part of the same adaptive stress response.

Evidence strength: Strong for the mechanism, moderate for the specific 48-hour timepoint in humans.

Stem Cell Priming and Immune Regeneration

Cheng et al. 2014 — Chia-Wei Cheng, Gregor B. Adams, Valter D. Longo and colleagues at USC. Published in Cell Stem Cell, 14(6):810-23. (2)

This is the Longo lab study that generated the “fasting regenerates the immune system” headlines. The reality is more nuanced but still remarkable.

What they found:

  • Prolonged fasting (48–72 hours in mice; fasting-mimicking diet cycles in humans) reduces circulating IGF-1 and PKA activity
  • This promotes hematopoietic stem cell (HSC) self-renewal and lineage-balanced regeneration
  • Multiple cycles of fasting reversed age-dependent myeloid bias in mice — essentially resetting the immune system’s tendency to produce more inflammatory cells as it ages
  • Multiple fasting cycles reduced immunosuppression and mortality caused by chemotherapy
  • Preliminary human data showed protection of lymphocytes from chemotoxicity during fasting

The refeeding insight: The regenerative benefit largely manifests during refeeding, not during the fast itself. The fast primes the stem cells by reducing IGF-1 and PKA signaling; the refeeding phase triggers the regenerative burst. This is often omitted in popular accounts — people focus on what happens during the fast, but the rebuild happens when you eat again. This makes the break-fast meal (Sunday dinner in the scenarios from Part 2) more than just the end of the fast — it’s the beginning of the regenerative phase.

Important caveats:

  • The 48–72 hour window comes from mouse data
  • The human component of this study used fasting-mimicking diet (FMD) cycles, not water fasting
  • The human data was preliminary — Longo’s subsequent work has focused more on FMD than on water fasting per se
  • The pro-regenerative effects were demonstrated after multiple cycles of fasting, not a single fast

Connection to the 46–54 hour fasting scenarios (Part 2): A 46-hour fast (Friday dinner to Sunday dinner) puts you at the lower edge of the window where this research becomes relevant. A 54-hour fast (Friday lunch to Sunday dinner) is solidly in the range. The 70–78 hour options maximize time in this territory.

Evidence strength: Strong in mice, preliminary in humans. The 48–72 hour window is from animal models. The refeeding-as-regeneration finding is well-supported.


Sources

  1. Jordan et al. 2019, Cell, 178:1102-1114.e17 — fasting reduces inflammatory monocyte pool: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31442403/ (full text: https://www.cell.com/cell/fulltext/S0092-8674(19)30850-5)
  2. Cheng et al. 2014, Cell Stem Cell, 14(6):810-23 — prolonged fasting, IGF-1/PKA, and hematopoietic stem cell regeneration: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/24905167/ (free full text: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4102383/)

Part 4: Hormonal Shifts

I’ve been doing 16:8 intermittent fasting for years and recently started 48-hour fasts — dropping about three pounds each fast, gaining one or two back, and trending steadily downward. I wanted to understand what the research actually says about what I’m doing to myself, so I worked with Claude (Anthropic’s AI) to produce this series. I set the structure, chose the topics, pushed back on claims that felt hand-wavy, and guided the editorial tone. Claude did the writing and research synthesis. My curiosity driving Claude’s research and prose.

Growth Hormone and Insulin Sensitivity

Research brief — the two best-evidenced hormonal responses to extended fasting, with direct human measurements.

Growth Hormone Surge

Human growth hormone (HGH) secretion increases substantially during fasting. This is among the best-measured effects of fasting in humans — researchers have drawn blood every 5 minutes over 24-hour periods to capture the pulsatile secretion patterns.

Ho et al. 1988 — Examined 24-hour GH secretion patterns in six normal adult men during fed and fasting states (day 1 and day 5 of a 5-day fast). Found that fasting enhances GH secretion through both increased pulse frequency and amplitude. (1)

Hartman et al. 1992 — The definitive study. Nine normal men, blood sampling every 5 minutes over 24 hours. Found a *-fold increase in 24-hour endogenous GH production during a two-day fast, mediated by increased secretory burst frequency and amplitude. Notably, IGF-1 concentrations were unchanged after 56 hours of fasting. (2)

The 5-fold figure from Hartman is the basis for the commonly cited “2–5x increase” claim. The range exists because individual responses vary and different studies measure slightly different things (peak amplitude vs. 24-hour integrated production).

What this does: The GH surge during fasting supports lean tissue preservation and fat mobilization. The body is shifting from burning glucose to burning fat, and elevated GH helps protect muscle mass during this transition while directing the body to use fat stores as fuel. This is part of the metabolic switch (Part 1) — the body isn’t just passively running out of food, it’s actively reconfiguring which tissues to protect and which fuel sources to tap.

Caveats: Both studies used small samples of healthy men (6 and 9 participants respectively). The findings are consistent with each other and with the broader endocrinology literature, but most subjects were young-to-middle-aged males. The GH response to fasting in women and older adults is less thoroughly characterized, though directionally similar results have been observed.

Evidence strength: Strong. Direct human measurements, replicated findings, published in top endocrinology journals. Small sample sizes but consistent results.

Insulin Sensitivity

Fasting for 48 hours produces a dramatic drop in circulating insulin and measurable improvement in insulin sensitivity. This is one of the most robustly demonstrated effects of extended fasting in human studies.

The mechanism is straightforward: with no incoming glucose, the body needs less insulin. Insulin levels drop to baseline. Cells that have been chronically exposed to high insulin (and have down-regulated their insulin receptors in response) get a reset. When food is reintroduced, the cells respond to insulin more readily.

The de Cabo & Mattson 2019 NEJM review covers this comprehensively, describing how intermittent fasting triggers neuroendocrine responses characterized by low levels of amino acids, glucose, and insulin. Eating within a 6-hour period and fasting for 18 hours can trigger the metabolic switch, with measurable improvements in insulin sensitivity. (3)

This isn’t subtle or contested — it’s one of the clearest, most directly measured effects of fasting. It’s also one of the most practically relevant for the large portion of the population dealing with insulin resistance, prediabetes, or metabolic syndrome.

Connection to 16:8 (Part 2): Even daily time-restricted eating improves insulin sensitivity. Sutton et al. 2018 showed that early TRE improved insulin sensitivity in men with prediabetes even without weight loss — the time restriction alone was enough. (4) Extended fasts amplify this effect further.

Evidence strength: Strong. Multiple human studies, reviewed in a major journal, physiologically straightforward.


Sources

  1. Ho et al. 1988, J Clin Invest, 81(4):968-75 — fasting enhances GH secretion: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/3127426/ (free full text: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC329619/)
  2. Hartman et al. 1992, J Clin Endocrinol Metab, 74(4):757-65 — 5-fold GH increase during 2-day fast: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/1548337/
  3. de Cabo & Mattson 2019, NEJM, 381(26):2541-2551 — effects of IF on health, aging, and disease: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31881139/ (full text paywalled: https://www.nejm.org/doi/full/10.1056/NEJMra1905136)
  4. Sutton et al. 2018, Cell Metabolism — early TRE improves insulin sensitivity without weight loss: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/29754952/ (full text: https://www.cell.com/cell-metabolism/fulltext/S1550-4131(18)30253-5)

Part 3: Cellular Cleanup

I’ve been doing 16:8 intermittent fasting for years and recently started 48-hour fasts — dropping about three pounds each fast, gaining one or two back, and trending steadily downward. I wanted to understand what the research actually says about what I’m doing to myself, so I worked with Claude (Anthropic’s AI) to produce this series. I set the structure, chose the topics, pushed back on claims that felt hand-wavy, and guided the editorial tone. Claude did the writing and research synthesis. My curiosity driving Claude’s research and prose.

Autophagy

Research brief — what autophagy is, what the evidence actually shows, and where the common claims outrun the science.

What Autophagy Is

Autophagy — from Greek auto (“self”) and phagein (“to eat”) — is the process by which cells degrade and recycle damaged organelles, misfolded proteins, and dysfunctional mitochondria. Think of it as cellular housekeeping: damaged parts get broken down and the raw materials get repurposed for repair and new construction.

Yoshinori Ohsumi won the 2016 Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine for discovering the genetic mechanisms of autophagy. Working in baker’s yeast in the early 1990s, he identified the genes essential for the process. The mechanisms are highly conserved across species including humans. (1)

The molecular trigger is well-understood: nutrient deprivation suppresses insulin and mTOR signaling and activates AMPK — all of which are upstream regulators of autophagy. The logical chain from “fasting → reduced insulin/mTOR → autophagy activation” is mechanistically solid. Disrupted autophagy has been linked to Parkinson’s disease, type 2 diabetes, Alzheimer’s, certain cancers, and many infections. (2)

What We Don’t Know in Humans

This is where the common claims outrun the evidence. Most of what people confidently state about fasting and autophagy in humans is extrapolated from animal models.

The measurement problem: You can’t biopsy someone’s liver or brain during a fast to count autophagosomes. The available approaches in living humans:

  • Peripheral blood mononuclear cells (PBMCs): Researchers measure the LC3B-II/LC3B-I ratio in blood cells treated with chloroquine ex vivo. This is an indirect proxy — it tells you something is happening in immune cells, not necessarily what’s happening in liver, muscle, or brain tissue.
  • LC3 and p62/SQSTM1 in tissue biopsies: More direct but rarely done in fasting studies on healthy humans because it requires invasive sampling.
  • Interpretation challenge: Elevated LC3 levels can reflect either enhanced autophagy or impaired autophagic flux (a blocked process, not an active one). The marker alone doesn’t tell you which.

A registered clinical trial (NCT04842864) titled “Time Course for Fasting-induced Autophagy in Humans” exists on ClinicalTrials.gov — the fact that this is still an active research question tells you something about how unsettled the timing is. (3)

A 2022 study by Chaudhary et al. found that intermittent fasting activated markers of autophagy in mouse liver but not in muscle from either mice or humans. Tissue-specific responses mean blanket claims about “autophagy ramping up everywhere at 24 hours” are oversimplified. (4)

What Can Be Said Honestly

The commonly cited “autophagy kicks in at 24–48 hours” is a reasonable estimate based on animal data and indirect human markers, not a precisely measured human threshold. The molecular machinery is real. The upstream triggers (low insulin, low mTOR, active AMPK) are clearly activated during a 48-hour fast. A 48-hour fast almost certainly activates autophagy in at least some human tissues. But “how much” and “exactly when” are not precisely known in humans, and the response varies by tissue type.

The metabolic switch framework (Part 1) places autophagy activation as one of several adaptive cellular stress responses triggered by the shift from glucose to ketone metabolism. (5) It doesn’t happen in isolation — it’s part of a broader cascade that includes DNA repair, protein quality control, and mitochondrial biogenesis.

Evidence strength: Moderate. Mechanism is solid. Direct human measurement is thin. The claim that autophagy is active during a 48-hour fast is well-supported mechanistically but not precisely quantified in humans.


Sources

  1. Nobel Prize press release (Ohsumi 2016): https://www.nobelprize.org/prizes/medicine/2016/press-release/
  2. Nobel Prize advanced information — autophagy mechanisms and disease links: https://www.nobelprize.org/prizes/medicine/2016/advanced-information/
  3. ClinicalTrials.gov — “Time Course for Fasting-induced Autophagy in Humans”: https://clinicaltrials.gov/study/NCT04842864
  4. Chaudhary et al. 2022, Nutrition — IF activates autophagy in mouse liver but not human/mouse muscle: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/35660501/
  5. de Cabo & Mattson 2019, NEJM — metabolic switching framework: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31881139/