But as the saying goes, the darkest hour is just before dawn. At some point during this “dark night of the soul,” I realized that the depression and despair I was feeling was the direct result of comparing my actual experience with an idea of what I thought my experience should be. I saw that I was striving for an ideal of health that was—at least at that point—unattainable, and that this was the cause of most of my suffering.~ Chris Kresser from, https://chriskresser.com/what-is-health/
This idea is right at the heart of my experience of the last few years.
Unfortunately, the “chemical imbalance” theory continues to be the dominant paradigm for understanding depression nearly 30 years after this profound discovery, despite the weak correlation between serotonin, norepinephrine, and dopamine and depressive symptoms.~ Chris Kresser from, https://chriskresser.com/is-depression-a-disease-or-a-symptom-of-inflammation/
I’m sure I have nothing useful to add on the topic of Depression– being not a doctor, psychologist, etc.
But I can raise my voice because I believe I understand the personal experience of depression. It sucks. Talk to someone.